Now, however, having learned to question herself, Iris seems to have lost what once made her so popular and grand. Her pride lives on, though suffering day by day, and she remains loyal to her friends and family, but much in Iris has changed with her coming of age. She has yet to find her passion, her calling, and the feeling of listlessness has driven her further in tainting her good standing. Love tugs at her ever stronger, from all directions, and Iris finds herself constantly struggling between what she knows is best for herself and what is best for others. Nervous and unsure, she recedes into an unpleasant being- spiting arrogant words that she doesn't believe, and depressing herself with the fact that she is failing to be the kind of dragon that she wants to be.

Though her pride often made her somewhat hard to be around, it seems that Iris is broken without it. She needs to find her place again, believe that she is the best that there is...

It wasn't until after her adulthood ceremony and graduation, that Iris was really put to the test. Working on the Chxalli island, struggling to keep things in order while the main number of adults had left for various outings, left her without much energy. On one particularly slow day, Ghwen appeared with her grandmother's stolen ship and the pair departed for Star City together. Though she had said that she wanted to bond with her friend, Iris was desperately seeking a way to get out of her commitment and did when she signed up for a flight at Star City instead. Ashamed of her recent shortcomings, and disturbed by her own lack of enthusiasm and purpose, Iris found herself beginning to stumble, her mind full of doubt.

After giving up first in her flight and ignoring an invitation to coffee by the polite riser, Iris suffered an emotional breakdown. Feeling completely lost, she let go... and had it not been for a pair of her friends, Nolary and Ghwen, she probably would have wandered somewhere from which she never would have returned.